not bad but not too good
Too many things have been going through my mind. Yet, to pen it down here will definitely offend people, even your friends.
Just when she thought that she could just possibly be the best friend anyone could have, people felt that she was the worst one could ever have. Even if it's not that bad, she's DEFINITELY not the best friend type.
It felt quite mutual that both of us are rather unwilling to talk to each other. I HAVE NO FUCKING idea wad's the damn thing wrong with her?! From my point of view, it seems to have started from HER. If she has anything that's UNHAPPY abt me, i would very much appreciate it that she tell me right out and stop doing those acts which i certainly consider childish. Well, I wouldn't deny that i'm immature too. But, she's doing more immature things?
It is also evident that she certainly cannot control her temper in discussions, which were supposed to be 'OBJECTIVE'. What i meant by objective, i refer to situations where a group of people come together, with the aim of finding a solution to a problem. To put it simply, just for illustrations, it means project discussions, exco meetings, etc (in academic terms). Don't know wtf she takes it personal (well, she'll deny it and said that i'm no better or sth). But i believe i've gained enough support from the rest that she's worse than me. I sworn that i certainly did not bribe them with anything. It was simply too obvious. They are NOT blind, both physically and emotionally.
Like i've said, i DON'T EVER DARE claim that i've matured. Every time i claim to have matured, i have just became more immature. The fact that i'm complaining abt things here, serves as evidence. Bottling up inside me would kill me one day. Why should i die for her, a friend like her? I do wonder, why should i care if she doesn't care about me?
Oh, so whatever. I had only just hoped that she would be LESS bitchy. If only i could see less of her. If i can't, it would be wise to speak less or she'll be more pissed and then more bitchy.
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This semester hasn't been a very good one. People have smiled less. They have more problems, personal life, school, family, cca, external commitments, work. I suppose the contraint of time has worsen it, leaving less opportunities to resolve the conflicting situations.
Milk Buddy has smiled so much less, spoke less, joked less. She seems to have too much, too many things bottled up inside her. I wish i could help her. Yet, i'm helpless and struggling in my own troubles too. There are just some things she could see but i could not and i still hold a different opinion from her. Was hoping that she might be wrong. It often hurts to know the truth and reality abt the selfish nature of humans.
I wish Milk Buddy would smile more.
I felt apologetic towards her. Due to my carelessness, i actually accidentally created more work for her for 205. sigh. duno wth i was doing at that moment too.
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Yesterday was cool.
After lesson, i went to meet QY to get a pair of earrings. Being a bad influence for 1 day, i dissuaded her from going to Astronomy Lecture and both of us went to SAC basement, sat down at a desk, and chatted till 3pm. It was so hilarious when she shared her love story. Admired her for her really ambitious ambition and dream. So unlike our usual boring aims like getting into Big 4, hoping to earn a good salary, obtain job security. These, to her, are shallow aims. Even though i felt the same way as her, I still persist that i would want to achieve my boring objective. Solely because, I NEED $$$! Still, good to have her criticisms. lol!
After the long lunch, cabbed home from school, grabbed my school materials and chiong to carmel's home at JW. Miss the JC mugging sessions! We used to be so familar with the studying areas in jc, because we were in sch daily during the study period before the 'A' Levels. HAHA! super mugger. It was quite weird that, i actually have a super non-accounting but duper markering friend as a GOOD friend. It always feel like as if marketing students got sth against accounting students and vice versa. LOL. Perhaps i was thinking too much?
During the 5hours i spent at her home, she would ask me qn abt managerial accounting and i would ask her qn abt marketing, etc, then talk abt random things under the evening sun.
Just as fun. =)
p/s: And i realise Helen was really sweet and nice. But if GPA 3.2 can get into KPMG, why am i studying so hard now? hmmm..
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Had 4hours of lsn today. Was again totally lost in 301. Had no idea wat he was blabbering abt. He posted a qn at me and was glad n lucky that i've got my grpmates to help me out! lol! I guess it's just not a good idea to have a name that's easier to pronounced as compared to my grpmates' ones. haha.
After lessons, had lunch at Canteen B, tried the western food which has just moved from NIE. not bad! quite good in fact, for school standards! Then off we went to kope a tutorial room to start our 311 grp discussion. Talking abt it, i forgot to bring my 311 casebook this morning. So i had to sms a fren and borrow the book from her. (so paiseh to trouble her, but yet it's just damn sweet n heart-warming to have a friend like her). Alth it's the same casebook, but without my own highlightings and colors, the book just feel so different, as if i've never read the case before.
The entire meeting lasted till past 9pm. *shagged and stretched*. phew. But that's not the end, couldn't go home still. Waited for mama to come fetch me to the Bedok private nursing home to visit grandma. so damn tired.
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Having a chat on msn with xiaoli now. She too thinks that I should stop getting upset over little things. Perhaps i've cared too much abt a friendship, abt a friend. So i'm jumping up and down whenever she pisses me off. Yet, Xiaoli has totally understood it that it's just my natural character. So what now? Next time a friend irritates me, i ask her/him to go and die ah?
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I've just spent 1h30min blogging. HAHA! i'm now going to sms milk buddy and then get off to bed. Tml still muz wake up and chiong my 301 essay. As for Sunday, maybe i might go fly kite and help prepare and attend the Caretalyst BBq? woohoo! time to chill again~! Hope i can finish much work tml!! argh!!
Byebye!
Just when she thought that she could just possibly be the best friend anyone could have, people felt that she was the worst one could ever have. Even if it's not that bad, she's DEFINITELY not the best friend type.
It felt quite mutual that both of us are rather unwilling to talk to each other. I HAVE NO FUCKING idea wad's the damn thing wrong with her?! From my point of view, it seems to have started from HER. If she has anything that's UNHAPPY abt me, i would very much appreciate it that she tell me right out and stop doing those acts which i certainly consider childish. Well, I wouldn't deny that i'm immature too. But, she's doing more immature things?
It is also evident that she certainly cannot control her temper in discussions, which were supposed to be 'OBJECTIVE'. What i meant by objective, i refer to situations where a group of people come together, with the aim of finding a solution to a problem. To put it simply, just for illustrations, it means project discussions, exco meetings, etc (in academic terms). Don't know wtf she takes it personal (well, she'll deny it and said that i'm no better or sth). But i believe i've gained enough support from the rest that she's worse than me. I sworn that i certainly did not bribe them with anything. It was simply too obvious. They are NOT blind, both physically and emotionally.
Like i've said, i DON'T EVER DARE claim that i've matured. Every time i claim to have matured, i have just became more immature. The fact that i'm complaining abt things here, serves as evidence. Bottling up inside me would kill me one day. Why should i die for her, a friend like her? I do wonder, why should i care if she doesn't care about me?
Oh, so whatever. I had only just hoped that she would be LESS bitchy. If only i could see less of her. If i can't, it would be wise to speak less or she'll be more pissed and then more bitchy.
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This semester hasn't been a very good one. People have smiled less. They have more problems, personal life, school, family, cca, external commitments, work. I suppose the contraint of time has worsen it, leaving less opportunities to resolve the conflicting situations.
Milk Buddy has smiled so much less, spoke less, joked less. She seems to have too much, too many things bottled up inside her. I wish i could help her. Yet, i'm helpless and struggling in my own troubles too. There are just some things she could see but i could not and i still hold a different opinion from her. Was hoping that she might be wrong. It often hurts to know the truth and reality abt the selfish nature of humans.
I wish Milk Buddy would smile more.
I felt apologetic towards her. Due to my carelessness, i actually accidentally created more work for her for 205. sigh. duno wth i was doing at that moment too.
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Yesterday was cool.
After lesson, i went to meet QY to get a pair of earrings. Being a bad influence for 1 day, i dissuaded her from going to Astronomy Lecture and both of us went to SAC basement, sat down at a desk, and chatted till 3pm. It was so hilarious when she shared her love story. Admired her for her really ambitious ambition and dream. So unlike our usual boring aims like getting into Big 4, hoping to earn a good salary, obtain job security. These, to her, are shallow aims. Even though i felt the same way as her, I still persist that i would want to achieve my boring objective. Solely because, I NEED $$$! Still, good to have her criticisms. lol!
After the long lunch, cabbed home from school, grabbed my school materials and chiong to carmel's home at JW. Miss the JC mugging sessions! We used to be so familar with the studying areas in jc, because we were in sch daily during the study period before the 'A' Levels. HAHA! super mugger. It was quite weird that, i actually have a super non-accounting but duper markering friend as a GOOD friend. It always feel like as if marketing students got sth against accounting students and vice versa. LOL. Perhaps i was thinking too much?
During the 5hours i spent at her home, she would ask me qn abt managerial accounting and i would ask her qn abt marketing, etc, then talk abt random things under the evening sun.
Just as fun. =)
p/s: And i realise Helen was really sweet and nice. But if GPA 3.2 can get into KPMG, why am i studying so hard now? hmmm..
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Had 4hours of lsn today. Was again totally lost in 301. Had no idea wat he was blabbering abt. He posted a qn at me and was glad n lucky that i've got my grpmates to help me out! lol! I guess it's just not a good idea to have a name that's easier to pronounced as compared to my grpmates' ones. haha.
After lessons, had lunch at Canteen B, tried the western food which has just moved from NIE. not bad! quite good in fact, for school standards! Then off we went to kope a tutorial room to start our 311 grp discussion. Talking abt it, i forgot to bring my 311 casebook this morning. So i had to sms a fren and borrow the book from her. (so paiseh to trouble her, but yet it's just damn sweet n heart-warming to have a friend like her). Alth it's the same casebook, but without my own highlightings and colors, the book just feel so different, as if i've never read the case before.
The entire meeting lasted till past 9pm. *shagged and stretched*. phew. But that's not the end, couldn't go home still. Waited for mama to come fetch me to the Bedok private nursing home to visit grandma. so damn tired.
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Having a chat on msn with xiaoli now. She too thinks that I should stop getting upset over little things. Perhaps i've cared too much abt a friendship, abt a friend. So i'm jumping up and down whenever she pisses me off. Yet, Xiaoli has totally understood it that it's just my natural character. So what now? Next time a friend irritates me, i ask her/him to go and die ah?
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I've just spent 1h30min blogging. HAHA! i'm now going to sms milk buddy and then get off to bed. Tml still muz wake up and chiong my 301 essay. As for Sunday, maybe i might go fly kite and help prepare and attend the Caretalyst BBq? woohoo! time to chill again~! Hope i can finish much work tml!! argh!!
Byebye!
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