i realised
i won't want to find out
how it feels to be thought in a negative manner by your very own trusted loved one
maybe your intention was good
but you never thought about how i would feel when i found out the truth
you had never intended to tell me what you had done
you had never expected me to be upset over something you deemed as small issue
indeed a small issue
but not so when it concerns your judgement of my character
i never knew you were all along afraid that i would become someone like HER one day
i thought i was at least a perfect good girl in your eyes

was it your fault for not trusting me or was it my fault that i was not able to make you trust me

i can't think of any reasons for you not to trust me
for i've been trying all my best not to go against your wishes

even if you were to undo what you've done
i'm already hurt
i wished you had hidden it from me
now that i've found out, what am i to do

this is just so ridiculous

perhaps, your view of me matters too much to me