total life disorder

i tink i'm in deep shity trouble. i tink i hav eating disorder. shld i even put it in tis way? i'm not sure. i oni know tt i can no longer control how much i eat. like, no matter how much i eat, i cant seem to fill up my stomach. yea. wad's the problem with me? i'm alwaes hungry. it has got nth to do with high metabolism rate now. bcoz my weight no longer stays the same. haiz. n i'm feeling rather upset over it.
yea. i'm so frustrated. there's many factors contributing to my frustrations. stressful sch work, increase in weight, ... many more. they juz accumulate over the past few weeks. den ytd was on the phone with peiwen. den my dad come in n kaobei. den i sien n started weeping. i feel so fragile at that moment. haiz.
[peiwen]: it's okay tt u're unable to console me. =)
i wonder wad's reali wrong with me. i canot concentrate despite sitting down for 2 hours juz now, trying to do my spa skill A. now, 2hrs later, i oni wrote down the aim. haha. i wonder where i'm wandering to.
my determination is gone.. gone gone.. i needa find it back.. but again, how?
i've no idea wad i'm talking abt now...total sien-ness..

todae morn woke up at 5.30am. yea. went to play badminton at cck sports hall at 7am. tot tt at 8am i'll go run on the tracks. den halfway during the game, i hear slight thunder.. i tot i hear wrongly.. yea.. den thunder again..zz.. tot tt it's goin to rain soon, i giv up the thought of running.. den went for breakfast n reach home. den wad? it still haven rain!! darn! i shld hav run!! ok fine. i felt cheated by the sky. or is it tt i'm juz too dumb?!
come home. very very very tired.. so i went off to nap.. woke up near 2pm.. yea..

haiz. life's sucha bore at tis point of time. hope next wkend will be a better one..