ytd put down fone wit classmatess le... back online realise some kinda shitty stuff la.. dunno wad i'm trying to do..defending somebody who lied to me more than once? haiz... dunno wad i m doing... shit it manz... v pekchek...den suez went offline le..i oso sian diao..went offline..den smsing wit zY.. den i wait n wait n wait..frm 11 plus till almost near 1am..for him to return to his army camp... bathe...eat le..ahh..den finalli he ok..-.-! den chatted on the phone till near 3am lor... den went to slp... it was a v nice chat la..=) but he nv console me..oni knoe how to 落井下石..lolx..oso nvm lor..at least he's true..at least wad he says..wad he do is his truthful self... haiz.. i'm so siann of maskss... liess... peerhaps i'm a lie myself..bcoz i kept lying to mySelf... for past 2 yrs...yea... so i'm sick of myself too... he made me luff for whole 2 hr....giving me a good sleep... mayb can say it's one of the best night sleep so far tis yr.... but i nv slp enuff la..so todae go sch abit blur blur..den dun feel like toking..den siann siann..coz realli v tiredd lor... budden after tt..go for lessons n stuff le..i bcame v dulan wit sth la..dammit... suan le lor..take it as my fault k... yea yea..i'm pathetic..zzzzzzz.. siann the whole dae...den after sch... slacked for a tiny while in sch... den i bth le...siann..n i v slpy...den nv go for training oso..juz cum hm ...
actualli its quite shuang to come home alone lro..i walked outa the sch alone... went cck lot 1...bought horlick soyamilk..NICE!!! hahaha..hot hot somemore..i scalded my tongue la..but i dun mind la..haha.its nice..its worth it... den i took bus home.. den i keep smsing...ahhaha.. smsed wit zY.. yN jiex..pW..bX..haha..smsed till my inbox full twice... so keep deleting sms..haha.. siann diao... till now still smsing..tis mth bill sure burst... super slpy now..but..ok la.. i'll wait... *cannot slp* lolx.. if nt tonite i cham diao liao...
aniwae i'm reconsidering changing combi to either chem bio or chem phy..more likely for chem phy ba.. alth phy is hard...but at least dun nid to mugged..dun nid to write long good essays(which i m weak at) .. n if cannot handle can hav tuition( oni bo bian to the last extent)... for econ so far..i tried to revise..but cannot leh..read le as if nv read... so..mayb i'm giving it up..if its a requirement to go business fac..perhaps i'll choose another fac? ha ha ha..i dunno..i juz hope i'll make a wise choice... but i oso bu she de my frens..haizz..*sad* but parting is part of life... so r memories...

i'm so sick of consolation words

alth it's ur efforts

i appreciate it

but i juz need

some peace

some time

to settle it

thx

=)