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photoss...memories...that's all i've left... ratio of sad to happy ones r oni 9.5 : 0.5
have no idea.. wad i'm actualli trying to do past 2 yrs... things happened 2 yrs.. not say wan to 4get then 4get de... since all r oni sad ones...tears follow so... i've slpt oni 3h or less..on fri nite...so on sat... went to meet ernest jingyi s.c wilson suez lynn @ je tt time... i looked like i juz wake up..perhaps i shld tell them tt i meet them at imm better still...so tt i dun hafa pass thru je mrt ctrl... haizz... when buyin bbq stuff tt time.. i'm trying so hard to stay as normal as possible... but y? y after they left... i'm then trying so hard not to cry... suez told me to go toilet... to cry all i wan... do i haf a choice over when i wan to cry too? somehow or another..i'm beginnning to feel tt my life is 'no choice' le... wad m i tinkin of?
keane came to help us bring our bbq stuff to siewhoon hse... lynn n suez keep askin mi to cheer up..n when sockying came behind me ... didnt giv mi a jump much either... i'm much numbed?? hiazz.. at siewhoon hse... things began to liven up.. i'm feeling much better..i'm laughing more than i did in the morn... preparing water bombs...food... bbq was quite fun..as compared to the past bbq i've had... tis was much better..at least i tried the food...
but a sad thing ish.. i brought the radio over but batteries doesnt match..so no music le lorx... but nvm lor..tts not sth tt bothers me... the guys can cook quite well..n realise tt suez can make a good hsewife in future..ha ha..
den dunno y..i drink the fruit wine le... head abit pain..den later headache le..i duuno wad happen too.. its not the 1st time i drink wine..mayb 2nd or 3rd time le..budden nth happen the previous timess.. wad happen tis time? is it realli the wine???? mayb its bcoz i slpt too lil the previous nite n all the running abt on sat..ba... n wit a lil wine..mayb tts y?? haizz.. then later i walked home n send xli sY sR kYl to the busstop..n dey send me halfway up the way to my hm.. nice of them.. i sms them to thx them..n they mass smsed back ... wit the same thing...ha ha..
i cum hm le..head stil pain... i ask zY how..he told me to drink lotsa water coz all alcoholic drinks de content somehow ll dehydrate us.. den i drank one whole bottle of water down...den todae morning wake up... my head still spinning..i've slpt for 10 hrs le...still pain..i dunno wad to do le...dun dare take panadols oso... warm milk? i dun hafa it at home...
ytd bbq was fun..i luffed..there's joy...but...somehow i find tt happiness n laughters r not permanent to me... i'm happy on the outside..but who knoes how miserable i'm feeling inside... aniwae... i'm trying so hard not to show tt i'm upset infront of so mani ppl..bcoz.. i've realise that.. we dont have to show evEryOne that we're sad... it's meaningless...or rather i dun wan ppl to keep askin me if i'm alrite...shld i say no? say yes? neither do i wanna spoil anione's mood by having a siann look on my face everywhere i go... no point doing such funnie weird stuff ... its meaningless.....
i juz saw sth i shldnt see again... perhaps i'm meant to see it.. or perhaps... its another sign asking me to wake up frm hallucination....
photoss...memories...that's all i've left... ratio of sad to happy ones r oni 9.5 : 0.5
have no idea.. wad i'm actualli trying to do past 2 yrs... things happened 2 yrs.. not say wan to 4get then 4get de... since all r oni sad ones...tears follow so... i've slpt oni 3h or less..on fri nite...so on sat... went to meet ernest jingyi s.c wilson suez lynn @ je tt time... i looked like i juz wake up..perhaps i shld tell them tt i meet them at imm better still...so tt i dun hafa pass thru je mrt ctrl... haizz... when buyin bbq stuff tt time.. i'm trying so hard to stay as normal as possible... but y? y after they left... i'm then trying so hard not to cry... suez told me to go toilet... to cry all i wan... do i haf a choice over when i wan to cry too? somehow or another..i'm beginnning to feel tt my life is 'no choice' le... wad m i tinkin of?
keane came to help us bring our bbq stuff to siewhoon hse... lynn n suez keep askin mi to cheer up..n when sockying came behind me ... didnt giv mi a jump much either... i'm much numbed?? hiazz.. at siewhoon hse... things began to liven up.. i'm feeling much better..i'm laughing more than i did in the morn... preparing water bombs...food... bbq was quite fun..as compared to the past bbq i've had... tis was much better..at least i tried the food...
but a sad thing ish.. i brought the radio over but batteries doesnt match..so no music le lorx... but nvm lor..tts not sth tt bothers me... the guys can cook quite well..n realise tt suez can make a good hsewife in future..ha ha..
den dunno y..i drink the fruit wine le... head abit pain..den later headache le..i duuno wad happen too.. its not the 1st time i drink wine..mayb 2nd or 3rd time le..budden nth happen the previous timess.. wad happen tis time? is it realli the wine???? mayb its bcoz i slpt too lil the previous nite n all the running abt on sat..ba... n wit a lil wine..mayb tts y?? haizz.. then later i walked home n send xli sY sR kYl to the busstop..n dey send me halfway up the way to my hm.. nice of them.. i sms them to thx them..n they mass smsed back ... wit the same thing...ha ha..
i cum hm le..head stil pain... i ask zY how..he told me to drink lotsa water coz all alcoholic drinks de content somehow ll dehydrate us.. den i drank one whole bottle of water down...den todae morning wake up... my head still spinning..i've slpt for 10 hrs le...still pain..i dunno wad to do le...dun dare take panadols oso... warm milk? i dun hafa it at home...
ytd bbq was fun..i luffed..there's joy...but...somehow i find tt happiness n laughters r not permanent to me... i'm happy on the outside..but who knoes how miserable i'm feeling inside... aniwae... i'm trying so hard not to show tt i'm upset infront of so mani ppl..bcoz.. i've realise that.. we dont have to show evEryOne that we're sad... it's meaningless...or rather i dun wan ppl to keep askin me if i'm alrite...shld i say no? say yes? neither do i wanna spoil anione's mood by having a siann look on my face everywhere i go... no point doing such funnie weird stuff ... its meaningless.....
i juz saw sth i shldnt see again... perhaps i'm meant to see it.. or perhaps... its another sign asking me to wake up frm hallucination....
posted by acissej ++ @ 11:47 AM
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